Sunday, July 12th, 2009

Kharnak is Back!

I'm Tired. Ive been working at DirecTV for Commercial Business since Feb. 16th. I've been working and saving money well, helping out with bills. It feels good to have money again. I've bought many small things on eBay i've been wanting for a while.
I like my job, thought it's Mentally fatiguing. I have to be cheerful and upbeat no matter what, and I have to think on my feet constantly. It has it's moments... cuz there's a lot of dummies out there..

Computer --- I JUST got my new PC at the end of June, it's a Compaq SR5710F, 2.3GHz Dual-core, 3G RAM, 250G HD ,Nvidia GeForce 6340 n420(is this any good? will it work with SecondLife?), with Comcast High-speed internet. I'm more than happy with it. It's nice to have something that won't freeze when i use Photoshop.
* I bought a Digital Camera: GE A735, it more than meets my needs.

Art ---
- I have lots of Art that i was scanning, i'll be posting it to my FA page over the next couple days as i work on cleaning them up. I'm very picky about the order in which i post.

check out this commission portrait from Misako
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2482711
I love it o_o, it captures the friendlier, not so Angsty side of me.
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* I'm still open to more Commissions at FA, thought i do have some prior commitments i need to make good on.
* My Skype name is KharnakRex
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Tuesday, December 16th, 2008

Applying for a job at PRC

hmm, i'm applying online...

"I understand that an investigative report may be generated on me that may include information as to my character, general reputation, personal characteristics, or mode of living; work habits, performance or experience, along with reasons for termination of past employment/professional license or credentials; financial/credit history; or criminal/civil/driving record history. I understand that LexisNexis, on behalf of PRC may be requesting information from public and private sources about any of the information noted earlier in this paragraph in connection with PRC’s consideration of me for employment, promotion or position re-assignment or contract now, or at any time during my tenure with PRC, and give my full consent for this information to be obtained."

WTF is this LexisNexis "Information Solutions" "big Brother" bullshit? someone explain this to me. I thought it was just some Law School search engine...
Mode of living??? personal Characteristics??? Are they going to look through my Art gallery and mine data on the subjects discussed in my philosophy classes? Bla Bla? Whisper down the alley? He said She said? this is JUST like that special on History Channel about what the future might be like with a conflict between corporate interests and personal privacy(which conservatives SWEAR doesn't exist. After all... only Criminals and sick evil moral degenerate communist hippy Perverts have anything to Hide! Raaaar!).
WTF people? Check out those hair gel Aryan models on their website. That's not how real Customer Service reps look like... -_-
gets tougher and tougher each year....
Thank you so much Reagan!!! you love to FUCK with us even when you're gone. It never ends... why do you want to screw up this world so bad? Why?
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Monday, December 15th, 2008

Dropping out of college again... Comments about Art

Now i have to go play Proletariat again for a couple of years...
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(pasted from my FurAffinity Journal)
Tommorow i have my last final, then i'm packing up and moving back home, where i have no internet. All i'll have is the public library internet, and no privacy, no scanner.

However... I expect to be kicking it into high gear with my artwork... I'm raring to go.
I found out i have a really really strong Lucifer complex. Hmm.. i'll let you figure that out ;3

If i am going to post work, it would have to be photographs.
I'm STILL taking commissions, badges, bookmarks etc. EMAIL me! Kharnak_the_goat at Yahoo! Holiday Donations? please please. I have a 981$ balance ;_;
Drop me a line, that's the only way you can keep contact with me.

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Question
Why... would female artists want a Male persona? (Whinge, Blotch, etc.)
Is there really a glass ceiling in the art world too?
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Observation
Every couple of years it cycles, where there are female artists that "bubble up" in the Memetic Field, and become wildly popular by "gaming" the system and "mining" what is popular, all the while giving everyone the finger under the table. Then, as we have seen years ago... they get sick and tired of the fandom's quirks, failings, and nuisances, that they begin to show the finger OVER the table. :icongoldenwolf:? Chaaaaaaa-Ching!
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Comments on the Nature of Art, Memetics, Diffusion of information and Computational Sociology

Artonis
hBruton
Vantid
Kacey
FoxFeather
This is it.... this is life...
Competitive System
A Competitive Dynamic System coupled with a Memetic Diffusion system.
Every adage, saying, proverb about Success, Perseverence, and Prosperity are nothing more than qualitative observations of this system....
this is what's "under the hood"
Rough stabs at a solution
FA-Memetic model
Prosperity Equation
think i'm bullshitting? You think i'm just babbling? You think i don't posess an ounce of Logic?
Read up on Computational Sociology, Chaos, Perturbation, Equilibria
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Competitive_Lotka-Volterra_Equations

Set={Moonstalker, WolfKidd, KenSample, Gideon, Disney-RobertGurthrie-Ferris-ICEman, DougWinger, DCRabbit, gNaw, MaxBlackRabbit, Megan, Bonk, Fossil, Nek0Gami,... and the blotch chicks}

Goal: i need to develop my own "money style". sometimes, i have these moments of clarity where i can see the clear path of what i need to do to get to my goal. This will require a fundamental change in my subject matter and technique. I'll have to focus on meaningful, emotional comics, develop characters with history, emotion, while executing art in a very detailed, dynamic fashion, colorful... Sexy, but Vanilla! More well-rounded, including many off-fetishes, and Vanilla topics... simple, effective... What works.

remember Wetherby-HMO? she was perfection. She gamed you all like sheep ;3 and -I- was among the first to Recognize the styles(the eyes, and the Y-shaped vein on every dick was a giveaway). The only problem with this case is that when "Quantum Tunneling" happens, it's not a stable equilibrium because it's based on appearances, and easily "pops". It was an amazing case of a sharp yet unstable "spike".
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Nothing stays the same....
cuz there were always Renegades!

RATM - Renegades of Funk(instrumental)
Now renegades are the people with their own philosophies
They change the course of history
Everyday people like you and me
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Universal Healthcare?

i need some good ballpark estimates for what people say a Universal Health care system would cost... what is it? 40, 50Billion? 75 Billion? isn't that what we spend on the Iraq War? hmmm..

This is how we finance it:


Well-regulated, not like that Bullshit self-incrimination catch-22 scam they tried 70 years ago...
DPR is one of my Bread&Butter issues. Prohibition in the USA

Legal History of Cannabis in the USA
Endocannabinoids
Medical Cannabis
it would put Pharmaceuticals to SHAME.
enemies: {Synthetic fiber industry, BigTobacco, BigPharma}
Learn! Read!
http://www.endocannabinoid.net/
http://www.erowid.org/plants/cannabis/cannabis_info2.shtml
They're(the conservative anti-intellectual "establishment") hoping.....
that you're too stupid to look it up!
To learn something outside of the syllabus.
Too stupid, to ever verify what you're told!
Too stupid to ever question what you're told!
DARE to learn!
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Thursday, December 11th, 2008

December Update... Withdrawing from UM

I've been working down my balance to about 981$ now. but that's all they can do for me. I was denied from 3 lenders, Citibank, EdFinancial, and SallieMae. Economy be fucked, (Thank you so much Reagan!!!)
I have to go straight back to work and play Proletariat for a couple of years....
but as i mentioned, i MAY be able to make it to Anthrocon in 09! I'll finally be able to afford things again.
I'm hoping to finish my degree at FIU, and maybe do some graduate work at UM again. I won't stop until i get the degrees i want. if there is a class of well-payed intelligencia... i want to be in it.
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Not just that.... but in the art world too.. For the past 10 years i've been in this fandom... and i'm tired of it not going anywhere... I want to be one of the Premiere Artists of the fandom. As clearly described in my recent FA Journal entry.
I'm planning on selling things on FurBuy, so i'll try to update you on that.
I'll also try selling stuff on eBay.
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I'm hoping to produce lots of art, but i'll to photograph them because i can't scan without a computer. Expect to see more premium paintings.
I accept Paypal! Kharnak_the_Goat at Yahoo! Donations? I got an outstanding college balance.
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Here's some Pink Floyd songs to zonk out to.
Time
Shine on you Crazy Diamond
High Hopes song about how we have ambitions for the wrong things, and subconsciously we sabotage ourselves.
Us and Them
Comfortably numb

And an old favorite, all warm and fuzzy
NIN - A Warm Place
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Monday, October 13th, 2008

denied - where i go from here

Sunday evening i had my mom come down to UM... because i was told you CAN use a parent as a cosigner. But unfortunately, she was not eligible. She still has a bankruptcy that gets discharged 2009, so it didn't work out.
I was really hopeful for a bit, thinking there was a 90% chance she'd get approved, even if she had Fair credit. It would just give me the loan at Prime Rate + 1.5% at the most.
So this confirms it for sure now. I really am screwed.
I've done a lot of thinking of the best and worst Scenarios from here.

Worst - I have to leave here before the semester is finished and go straight to work... If i can't get some kind of forbearance on my Current student loans. My UM account goes to UM collections (again) and i'll have to bleed money from whatever paycheck i can find. I won't be able to get back into the college game for a long long time.

Best - I can finish the semester if i get a forbearance or deferment, I Work on campus... When it's over, I go straight to work and start earning some money regularly. I have to shape up and do commissions for money... however possible. eBay stuff... 5$ emergency commissions. I still won't be able to get back into the college game for a long time... BUT, if i'm working and making money... i MAY actually be able to make it to Anthrocon next year if things aren't so tight. --> From here on..... either way... I simply can NOT continue going to UM. This is most certainly, my LAST semester here. As much as i LOVE this place, the faculty, and everything(though i wish it was reciprocated a little more...) It's just not feasible. It won't happen.
I am exploring options at FIU the state college, and i'll have to transfer and finish all my degrees there. I've bled enough money. I must live within my means. It's all i can do.

you can't get Blood from Stone!
I have to put all of my ambitions on hold for a long LONG time, again.

I drew this pic last night... because it's a little hard for me to be brave right now.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1627717/
But I'm a fighter.
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I was having these miniature panic attacks last night... this sick cold feeling in my gut. Not good. I'm better now that i made a few decisions about the future though.
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Thursday, October 9th, 2008

Student Loans - I'm Fucked, again

I'm applying for a private student loan, signature student loan (SSL) that i use to cover my overhead cost, not covered by Federal Aid (thank you SO MUCH Bush)

-I'm technically still not registered at UM since my balance is not paid ===>
-I was denied Federal Work Study, so i can't get a job on campus
-My current loans came out of deferment, and they're asking for payments, i am now 8 days delinquent ==> My Cosigner (A Russian friend's dad) is going to get notification of this... and he'll be mad at me again.
-My Financial Aid doesn't cover as much & cost of attendance is up ==> I have $15,500 of overhead to cover with this Loan

===>I need another Cosigner, or I'm fucked! again. JUST like 4 years ago... and here i am STILL, in the same situation now. WTF.

I haven't felt this way in a long time.


(I can be your Art slave...anything at all, anyone?) or am I truly Fucked this time? me and my empty wallet.
this is IT... this is how they FUCK you.
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Sunday, September 21st, 2008

-_-~~~~

Just now... I got outbid on an eBay auction for a graphic novel by some fucking pimply ass Comic book Geek with no life and mommy's credit card...
Fuck you! Fuck you in the dickhole with your fucking figurine collection and Fuck your dad in the ass with a bottle of Vault! Fuck you, you worthless piece of Human Garbage! You waste of time, money and toilet paper and public services.
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EDIT: Fuck You! and i hope your dad bites off that deformed noodle dick of yours while he's double fisting your ass.
EDIT: http://feedback.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewFeedback2&userid=deaddave&ftab=AllFeedback there he is! Everyone go troll him, -_O call me a sore lose, but yeah -_O; that's me. sorry. I got a pair of BALLS, so i hate losing. I feel like destroying something o_O
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Sunday, September 7th, 2008

Hurricane? nah...

looks like we'll be saved again from the next Hurricane, though we do have a couple more coming off the coast of Nigeria. Key West is in for a beating though.
I'm still trying to get a Philosophy book, i'm gonna have to wait to import it from Singapore. According to UPS it just left ShangHai and is somewhere in the Pacific right now o_O

Chimera Music pics
3 quick ones from Youtube. The Bleach soundtrack. These fit amazingly well with my art sometimes.
Storm Center - This was a song i was listening to as i was first pondering the details of my Chimera character. Sounds almost like a Wrestling intro.
Burden of the Past - i won't say what this reminds me of, but this is a favorite of mine.
Battle Ignition - Very animeish sounding. Tough guy music.
Precipice of Defeat - Great BGM for a fighting game i think. Very Mathy i think. good for pondering physics.
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here's another cat picture
Miuuuu!!!
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Politics
the RNC protest... was NOT.. televised.
Remember your 4th, 5th, 6th amendments, never forget!!!
Police State misconduct! One creepy thing few people noticed... the Police did NOT have name tags. They order a crowd to disperse... and then they block their exit route so they bottleneck...
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PS.... anyone who does NOT live in Louisiana, Missouri, Tennessee, Oklahoma, North Dakota, Maine, Illinois or Delaware, Kansas, Virginia or Florida. if y'all can get me some Salvia, i'd be very grateful (Art Slave?).
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Thursday, August 28th, 2008

Classes & Finance

Classes & Book whoring
ok yesterday was my first rundown of classes...
Chemistry - here it gets hard, we'll be getting into Quantum mechanics and electron harmonics ;D
MTH210 - Linear Algebra, i'm trying to find a cheap textbook, perhaps from India? ISBN 9780321287137
MTH513 - holy shit! i'm getting into unfamiliar territory now in Partial Differential equations. it moves pretty fast, but i think i can do it. I'm still trying to find the textbook cheap. ISBN http://www.biblio.com/books/189882600.html is the best i could find. This is one Hardcore class ;D!
I'm gonna skip buying the Chemistry book... it's 200$... like fuck man.. i'm not gonna collect cans for this.

Tuesday & Thursdays i have no classes... except for a Chemistry lab on Tuesday night from 7 to 9:30... maybe i can finally get my hands dirty with the fun chemicals and bottles.
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Kharnak's Music picks
UM Radio WVUM is awesome, they play alternative(real alternative) music that you'll never hear anywhere else... unique and wierd at times. Here are some songs i've heard on WVUM:
High Places - myspace page, has some awesome Psychedelic music, they've rotated, "Golden" and "Head Spins". It's great stuff to get stuck in your head. I wish my dreams were more abstract like this. (Youtube has videos for them too)
White Williams - Violator really fun catchy song. I call it the "Happy dancing mushroom song." or the "DXM song." this really reminds me of my last semester ;3~
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Tommorow will be a breeze... I'm already acclimatized to the walking and the heat.
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Note to self:
Karl Rove needs to be beaten and smeared with Feces. (May he go the rest of his life without toilet paper)
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Sunday, August 24th, 2008

Art Scanned!

holy shit this song is so damn good!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zm7EeuWnc-8
Metallica is a little too "corporate" for me though, but i can't help but like their solos and drum-lines. I just wish that Hatfield guy would shut the hell up in most of the songs. His vacuous yammering yowling only detracts from the music.
someone, try using DXM, or any of your favorite PhenethylAmines or Tryptamines, i bet it would match well with this.
Oh and.... if you use DXM with vitamin B6 and some Benadryl,
this is what you'll see
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EHFqwxblATg
(not that i've done that lately ¬_¬;)
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I think i've finally adapted to the physical activity, since i've been doing a lot of walking on Campus now, doing errands o_O; Thank you Starbucks Verona Blend!!! (omg i could drink that stuff on and on and on and on)
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tommorow i search for jobs i got like 20 GOOD job leads, 7, 8, 9$/hour jobs
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Art Scanned
Cat Diarreah - This is me feeding my cat. she had diarreah. and wow.... that cat can really do a number. kinda like this Cat From Date Movie, you'll piss yourself laughing!
Cat Feeding - I guess it was my fault??

420 furs comic
Ridicule the Ridicule - This is a funny comic inspired by the recent New Yorker comic that satirizes Barack and Michelle Obama. I figured this is a very important kind of humor, because it identifies biases, and knee-jerk reactions, it drags them out into the open, shines a light on them and exposes them for what it is. Highlighting their shear absurdity. I mean come on now, is this really what some people think will happen? You see a young lion or Puma on the floor with several Hypodermic needles in his head and tongue, and miscallaneous chemicals, inhalants, Phenethylamines(i realize i left a bunch of them out). Also, i pasted in a caricature of John Lennon.
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blast this real loud
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QKmu-CkdvxQ
Northern Lite
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Monday, July 21st, 2008

Kharnak's Talking points

I thought talk radio was supposed to be the last refuge for Conservatism... i can't seem to find a single station. I've been listening to AM 940 WINZ for the last couple of weeks and it is totally awesome. i recommend just about anyone to listen to this kind of stuff because it really gets your mind going, and you hear news stories that you don't hear anywhere else. Details! real Details that are held back from the traditionalist corporate news media. Now I like Lou Dobbs and Anderson Cooper, they're cool. But i do get tired of the right-handed spun stories and histrionic sappy sob stories that the Establishment loves to weave.

ok, some talking points, because i don't have much time here at the library:
Hurricane Katrina, some senator said there "was nairy a drop of oil spilled" when in reality there was a total of 743,000 gallons of petroleum products spilled, that's WORSE than Exxon-Valdez! Liars!
You think someone wearing a Suit & tie on TV won't lie to you?!!!

Thomas Jefforson wrote a letter to John Adams in 1813 about ideas for Diffusino of Learning, to fund college, much like they do now in Europe. Allowing greater access to knowledge and information in order to undermine the Pseudo-Aristocracy, like we have today. By education, we can break through the webs and veils that the establishment tries to weave in order to keep you from hearing the WHOLE truth. One must always ask.. "what am i not being told here?" "who is benefitting from me believing this?"
Much of the information that's important...... about economics... philosophy... NeuropsychoPharmacology... Chemistry... these things are often very Complicated topics that are inaccesible to the general public view....... and the establishment tries to keep that from you. You just keep drinking that Conservative Kool-Aid. hoping that you're too STUPID not to notice, hoping that you're too DUMB to not look things up.

Aldous Huxley would be pleased that with the advent of the internet, Google, Wikipedia, youtube, the average person now can be VERy well informed.. AS IS NEEDED for a properly functioning Democracy!!!
The establishment relies on LIV's.... Low Information Voters.... don't be one!!!

Under McCain, he will have the DHHS Department of Health and Human services relabel Contraception to be Abortion... this includes birth control pills.. even Condoms!!! wow!!!

Capitalism is a great thing... but by its nature, it is inherently exploitive and predatory. It is very easy for it to be unscrupulously commandeered. My point...... Alan Greenspan's Doctoral thesis was all about economic cycles... Booms, busts, and bubbles popping.... he subconsciously, if not intentionally set things in motion to come about as they have..... Mathematically.... Capitalism, (As coined by Ben Stein's Father)Voodoo Economics, Reaganomics, Trickle-down economics, is all about Maximizing acceleration of profit...
If a stock is not increasingly profitable each period... the value goes down... FUCK! -_O Money coming from nowhere...
It's argued that the traditionalists want a return to feudalism... share-croppers... except we'll be slaves to mortgagers and debtors... this happens by Devalueing the equity in people's homes... over-extending credit... Reverse Mortgages....
It makes about as much sense, metaphorically, as an island country with limited resources that chooses to regularly have numerous baby booms... (Haiti anyone? Ahaha)
I repeat though... Capitalism is a great thing, when done right.... but as Tony Snow(may he rot in his grave.... oh he is!!! Ahaha) put it, there's the "exploding Cigar of human nature". but we ought to have a little more self-respect and optimism than that.
but seriously.....
Education underpins everything.
Education will free you. REAL education! not that stuff that's been spoon fed to you throughout High School.
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News -

I didn't get hired by Armani Exchange..... money is growing every tighter. ;_;
if anybody's got an ounce of Bud they can mail me... i'll be your Art slave, for realz. i needs it. rurrrrr

I Have a PLAN!!!
I need to get some people together from the LJ communities.... FurAffinity 420 communities... and anyone else sympathizing with my ideas... (which i have not yet even gotten to yet....) about a change in policy, changing the opinions and mindsets, and reversing the negative conditioning of public opinion towards Drug Policy Reform. We need to get loud! It's time to educate and spread real knowledge, REAL facts! not negative misleading biased spin! things will change!

email me, i first want to start small, by writing collectively letters to the editor, to get published in Newspapers, etc. the ideas are simple enough on their own, we just need to rehash and reword them for numerous papers like, the NewYork Times, LA times, San Fransisco Chronicle, Boston Globe, and many other liberal papers... and, we rotate regularly increasing the likelihood of getting published.
Next.... you just have to be a stand-up guy/gal speak up! and often!

www.NORML.org
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Ideas in the Art Bin...
Cheetah butthole fingering channel
Foreskin Demons
Megabuttholes for Demons
Hyena fraternity

I miss you all ;_;
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FUCK THE FDA!
FUCK THE DEA!
FUCK NIDA!
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Wednesday, August 15th, 2007

healthy Skepticism?

Artistic anomalies. I've been wrong before...
HMO=Wetherby )
I just want it to be known that i was not among those who were fooled. This is all i want to declare. If I'm wrong, I'm wrong.
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Sunday, August 12th, 2007

quick pimp

Kamilya's Furbid she uses markers, and draws those nice sexy maws with Vore appeal.
Also, DreamRunner's Furbid
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Saturday, August 11th, 2007

Rowrrrrrr....

ok... 8 more days until the UM move-in date.. the 19th, a Sunday. I still do not have a room assigned to me. I got an email from the Housing department sent to all wait-listed students advizing us on Off-campus options.... i saw them, and it's absolute bullshit to me. Rooms and apartments for like $2000/month 12 month lease... crap like that. fuck no. fuck that.
(don't ask how)I know that there are about 65 students on this wait list... i did some calculations, knowing they all have the $250 housing deposit.. that's at LEAST $16,000 that UM is sitting on. Assuming $8,000 for housing expenses for the year, that's a cool half million dollars worth of housing expenses.. Now Tuition and total cost of attendance, give it $33,000(and that's being VERY conservative) that's a possible $2,100,000 or so. The upper limit of $42,000 attendance yields about $2,700,000 of total income, that's just 65 students... so 30 students represents about 1Million dollars of cash flow. Just food for thought....
I neeeeeed to think of some way to get housing on campus, if i cannot get housing, i can't GO. it aint gonna happen. It's August again, the SAME crap is happening again. I remember making a similar journal only 1 year ago, feels like it was yesterday. I almost feel like doing something stupid, or drastic. I need to get in.
Damn I hate stupid people, and inefficient people. People that don't listen to what i say.


Other News
I went to Michael's yesterday and got some art related things:
-Prismacolor(woohoo i'm l33t) Turqoise series sketching pencils-9B,6H(i couldn't find anything harder)
-Prisma White watercolor pencil(so i can do l33t watercolor highlights)
-3/4" Natural Sable Flat brush for watercolor
-10 pan plastic paint mixing tray (i liked the shape)

I think about buttsex all day every day whether i want to or not -_-..... grrff...
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Wednesday, July 25th, 2007

Medicine+stuff

Ok, just got back from Walgreens. The Battle of Walgreens. it went quite well, smoother then i thought, and my mom didn't "act a fool" this time... turns out my Dr.'s office didn't respond soon enough to authorize the refill. anyway.... i haven't been feeling good today, i've had similar chest tightness as before x_x i hope it doesn't bounce back as another flare event. I need to start sleeping at normal times.
-Washington Mutual finally, after 3 billing cycles, reversed the misposted payment of 700$ (you see, Europeans have this thing about writing the number 1 with a hook... and my mom insists on doing it that way even though this same problem happened before when a 100$ check was taken as 700)
-I found my Suzuri! it was a little chipped (vis a vis my mom's rough handling when my room had to be cleaned out)
Fact!: the chinese invented toner
-we bought another 5 lb bag of sugar. yum. and i bought pancake mix too, cuz i want pancakes :O
-my mom exchanged some dog food at the service counter, and some old lady behind us was complaining that we shouldn't be using the service counter as a check-out. i found this very amusing, i was SOOOO tempted to say something really mean and go Andrew Dice Clay on her ;D like "go get diarreah you old bag" or something funny.
-i gotta pay my SallieMae student loan payments again -_- *grumble*
-i'm going to make a couple of FA Sandwich meme pictures now... you know you love it.


Pimp this:
Check out the auctions of [info]huskie666 at furbuy
also for [info]dream_runner also Furbuy only 5 hours left on both :O
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Tuesday, July 17th, 2007

AC report

AC constants
-There's always some wierdo who follows me around every AC
-There's always someone who sits next to me in Artist Alley with a laptop who sells really well.
-Nobody ever draws for me
-people trying to hunt and find adamwan... and failing.

Here's my photobucket to illustrate
http://s14.photobucket.com/albums/a339/Kharnak/AC07/?start=all
i can explain any and every question you may have.

B757 was a nice plane, Delta has gotten significantly better since the last time i remember. (they had just about every drink i could want. Cranberry juice, Tonic water with lime, milk) They showed an episode of Scrubs, one of my favorite shows. How nice was that? I used my bigass pilot sized headphones.
Mind you.... i had a really BAD ear infection most of the time, as 2gryphon would describe, it's like "jamming crushed glass in my ear."
the MD-88 was a nicer plane then i thought. I noticed that it "feels" different and it turns differently, probably from the T-tail design.
Otherwise the flight went off without a hitch, and i got to the hotel easily(aside from the wierd homeless woman following me all the way).
This AC, i am pleased that i was able to meet, greet, or at least spot or encounter in some way every person i had on my list.
I didn't buy anything from the Dealer's Den this time, i wasn't in the mood for spending money.... but, as i was sitting in artist alley, i saw some tails and said.. "damnit i want a lion tail, right now" but it was too late, so i waited until tommorow. I really really like my new tail too. I wore it all the way home, and everyone thought it was cool, like the baggage handlers, flight crew, and even my mom, she even wanted to borrow it. go figure.
Waaaaaaah Saturday i wasn't able to get into Artist Alley, by luck of the draw. I hardly made any money either, but i can always liquidate on Furbid. So basically i began to give away my artwork prints for free. The reason why is because i don't plan on being able to make it back to AC for a long long time due to uncertain financial future. Hopefully if i can get housing, I'll be heading back to college to finish up, and i won't have any disposable income for a long time unless something wierd happens. So, sadly, there's no point in keeping these heavy prints around stagnating. Nobody buys them anyway. (The shower of dollar bills was real nice though, and quite unexpected ;D wow)

I was told what i needed to be told, and i heard what i needed to hear from certain friends. I feel a lot more motivated to produce artwork now.
I was feeling physically better then i did last year, so i was able to handle things better, and i was able to make it to the dances at night.
This AC was noted by its.... lack of sleep aspect. maybe 4 hours in 3 days. the only time i slept good was when i encountered Darien Darkwolf and the Pawpets guys, as you can see from the photograph. They even left me a huge peanut butter and chocolate birthday cake, how awesome! :D I used to watch Pawpets regularly, and i should get back into it, you can find some great stuff on youtube also. ohhhh man it felt good to sleep... Honestly... i was slightly relieved that i didn't get into Artist Alley the 2nd day, i just didn't think i could wing it again.
I think Saturday night, i was at the dance, and i turned around... for a moment i thought it was Ayato, until i saw the badge, Zaush. I said to myself "oh... him" so i snapped a photo casually while he was videoing his Citra design suit, which looked really good, and i'm sure there are videos and photos popping up by now. (Please link me if you find them) What i find amusing is that every year i encounter people trying to find adamwan, like "hey i'm looking for him, we're trying to find him" and i decide to tag along. Every year they failed. Oddly enough, i turn around... and there he is. *snap* and what i found most amusing, is when i turned around again, he was gone!!! XD Ahaha! ohhh man.. some people, i tell ya.
ICEman was the total opposite, he was everywhere! :D he wore the same shirt the whole time. (As did i, but hey, i didn't have access to a hotel room)

I really miss the congoing mindset. I hate having to adjust back to everyday life again. People being judgemental, etc. -_-
As expected, the last day was quite sad for me, and yes i did cry on the plane, but not as much as before.
Now... all in all, in spite of my bad ear infection and icky cold, i can still look past the negatives, and i'd say i had loads of fun. I miss being there. You've got to hear about my trip back, it was a fun little ordeal in itself ;O
The bus to the airport took longer than expected, but fortunately.... the plane broke, and was delayed.(it also broke on the way up to Pittsburgh, damn those MD-88s break down like wth man) So i was happy i made it on the plane, however..... we took longer than expected and most of us missed our connection. BUT, Delta took care of us, and gave us meal vouchers and hotel vouchers, which i thought was very nice of them. I saw groups of people from other airlines sleeping in the terminal, i'm glad i didn't have to play the Vagrancy Game yet again. I made use of my Meal voucher and got some kickass Wendy's, omg that potato was SO good! and that Frosty, damn! and damn that was a good ass burger! :O I got on the shuttle to the Comfort Inn, and everyone was grouchy except me, i was actually in an oddly good mood and polite the whole time. It felt SO good to have a room all to myself, mine mine. A coffee machine.. for me? 2 beds, and an air conditioner, that I controlllll Ahaha! no no jack, you turn on when I command now! mmm damn they had some good ass coffee too. mostly cuz it was all free, courtesy of Delta. Honestly, I don't blame Delta for this amazing cascade of inconveniences, I blame Mcdonnell Douglas aircraft. Many of these planes were built in the 80s, most of us don't have cars that old.
After being at AC, i found it much easier to socialize with people, like i could start up conversations with just about anybody, i was chatting with people on where they're from and where they're going, and how they got into the predicament they are in, like this guy from Las Vegas said they had to cancel his flight because it was simply too hot to take off in a fully loaded 767(bigass plane). Now... i got on the airport shuttle real early.... BUT, since it was Monday morning, the busiest day.. in the busiest airport ATL, there were Disneyland sized crowds. The security had to corall everybody into walking these long curvy zigzag paths all throughout the terminal.(went surprisingly fast though.) This airport is so huge, we use trains to get to the gates, i was like "2000meters? you're fucking with me! :O" Anyway, most of us STILL missed our connection because of the unexpected airport crowds, so i was put on the next flight a couple hours later... phew, ok, so i had some Starbucks Tea. When i got on the plane, i was put all the way in the back, row 37 of an MD-88, so i looked out the window and 6" from the window was a P&W engine, i thought awesome! heck i don't mind. It was one bumpy ass(fun) flight too ;D
90 minutes of this. Ahhh but i still love flying.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKxa2daLcmQ
"please use caution while removing overhead baggage as contents have definately shifted"
"please remain seated until we've come to a complete stop. No person has ever beaten the plane to the gate, so please do not try"
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PS: i finally got the hospital bill, 8560$ but it's because the insurance didn't go through, and i need to make some phone calls to correct some info. Basically BlueCross got my birthday wrong... this does not put me in a good mood.


PS: also.... as of now I'm currently on the Housing waiting list at UM. I will receive another letter in the 1st week of August either giving me a room assignment, or an update on my waiting list status. If i can't get housing, i can't go.
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Tuesday, April 24th, 2007

Verdammt!

Kharnak News
Friday 4:35pm est/ I got fired. I was told after i finish this call to "Log out, gather up all your belongings and go see the operations manager." My heart was going 100mph. Wondering exactly why, though i tell you about call centers, everybody there has a guilty conscience. I'm pretty good at hiding my fear, but i was actually relieved it wasn't based on performance or statistics. You see.... Call volume has been very low for the past week. The team leaders would say like "everybody on my team go into Aux3" and we would be sitting there not taking calls, doing nothing for up to 200 minutes out of a day, but still getting paid. And i began to think how expensive this is from the business side. I heard it going around that people are getting downstaffed. So the reason why i was fired is because of that. I asked, and that's what they said, apparently it was on good terms. They told me i could be called back to work if call volume goes up again. (I guess we're doing too good of a job) I applied for unemployment the very next morning, and i have 4 leads on possible jobs. One of them is for JL Audio ;D!

Damn... damn damn. It sucks being unemployed again. I have lots of free time again... but that doesn't solve my original problem of not having any motivation for drawing.
There's too many premier artists out there getting what i want, and not even appreciating it.
I still blame all the unnamed "Pedestal Kickers" and "Fanboy Bashers" until i can think of some solution, or find some kind of Ambition re-igniting inspiration.
Anyone can drop me a line if you want. I encourage that. I'm here, i aint got nothing but time.



Hey guys, April is almost over :D Notice i STILL haven't posted any new artwork???
Although i tried getting my groove back just now. Rammstein put me in the mood for this
Nuka CBT
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Sunday, March 11th, 2007

more work

Work, Promotion, Responsibility
Ok here's my work situation... Last week i was in training for DirecTV CIS (Customer Installation Support) , it pays more than the regular mainbank customer service. However, this was an involuntary promotion, we HAVE to pass the certification or else I'm out on my ass again. The building where I'm working is not going to be renewing their lease and it will be closed down by August 31st, which is just fine since college classes start August 24th. Perfect timing. Furthermore, we will all be getting severance pay bonuses up until that date every couple months, depending on how long we stay. However, this position is a new challenge. WE are now the specialists that irate customers get transferred to, I'm supposed to be able to handle them now, I will be monitored much closer, and I have more authority to do things. We handle equipment ordering and Installation support and technician scheduling. I'm feeling very tense again, just like I did when i first started Mainbank. Not quite as much, since i already have good experience and it's only a couple more systems and skill sets we were learning. It's just more responsibility and expectations being pushed on me.
I must now recalculate my projected pay and earnings. Since i'll only be receiving about 13 more paychecks until my last day, not including the bonuses. One bonus coming in April is about 300$ and that practically covers my trip to AC! Yaya!
Speaking of AC..... i found this totally awesome amazing itinerary on Orbitz.com for a really good price. However..... I would really like to wait until after i get certified for CIS before actually purchasing. It just feels safer for me. I'll be taking 4 cool planes including a B757 a couple of MD-80s and a nice B767 on the way back. No stuffy smelly 7dirty7s this time.
They say the grass is greener on the other side, this is true, but your grass appears green again when someone's about to take it away.

Art Problem
i have this chronic problem of falling asleep just as I'm getting ready to start drawing. Problem is, my environment is not conducive to doing art. I don't really like to be sitting in my chair, and I fall asleep within minutes of laying down in my bed. My light is always at a bad angle, since my hand always casts a shadow. I don't like using natural sunlight, and i don't like the outdoors, so i don't like wind or doing it outside. Anyone have suggestions on how i can alter my patterns? I've been able to draw at a bus stop, and even on a bus on the way to work, I have been drawing in the break room at work before my shift starts, but time really seems to fly when i'm doing that.
獅子王 Fanfic
I've been conceptualizing a LionKing fanfic recently, and it's really coming together nicely. It finally seems like i'm able to come up with a decent workable plausible plot for once in my life. Too bad it's with copyrighted characters, but still. I don't feel the least bit weird about it since there's plenty of others who can appreciate what i'm doing. So basically what i have in mind is basically a prequel to everything. From the perspective of the bad guys mostly. I intend it to be very dark and gloomy, emotionally harsh like a soap opera, very very UnDisney. It should make you feel like crap, and it should, hopefully, make little kids cry. Hopefully I can work out more details on how to connect and resolve everything. Not necessarily a happy ending, but to tie it in with the bigger story, since I want to make it as canonical as possible. concordantly, there is the noted lack of porn. I do, however, intend to make some porn, but it will mostly be as side spin-offs.
Here's the text notes I jotted down from brainstorming
fanfic-notes.txt
and the first scene, I already doodled down. Mind you, I'm not planning on actually writing and typing out a story, no way. My joints are puffy enough as it is. I plan on just illustrating the notable scenes in graphic novel form, and offering descriptions in between. By all means, please feel free to drop suggestions. I need all i can get.
Mother's taunt
and here's a rough illustration of the next scene, where Zira and her crush were fighting, leading to this unfortunate scene. The next scene would be the father brutally killing and tossing the cub around, just like you would see a male lion do irl.(really, you can find videos of it) Oh how traumatizing.
Zira-finish him
The evil lions are also aware of the Circle of Life principles, BUT to them it's a twisted flipside perspective, where they see it as a constant cycle of Death, pain, struggling, and dying. Yes, there will be lots of yelling, crying, emo, and dismemberment. yum, just like the real wildlife. Anyone seen Discovery HD lately? yum yum. I swear you can count the hairs on a lion's balls, you can see right up a hyena's asshole.
Things that run in Zira's Family: Really good sex. Innate affinity for sadism and cruelty. Really good hunting skills.
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Thursday, February 15th, 2007

work

i get paid tommorow. i still have a vague ballpark estimate of how much my paycheck will be, i had 43 minutes of overtime, and we have a shift differential on certain times. meaning, we get paid extra on Saturday, and after 7pm... so... either way, my check will be juicy like tasty brain meats.
I feel almost like... Donating to FA, or.. maybe commissioning someone to draw for me. But who would it be? can it be true? nah..
I'm looking for someone to OC with, you don't have to be an artist. i'd be willing to let just about anyone just sit in and watch. I can't even get non-artists to sit in, I must really suck! Xp
Artwork practice
Nuka7 practice with OC
Practice of same thing
I hardly had any chance to draw Wednesday, i tried three times and i KEEP falling asleep! Waaah! I hate sleeping. How am i ever going to achieve my glorious fanfic if i can't even get it started? Wäääh
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